Saturday, October 07, 2006

I am so nervous I cannot sleep.


It is my first match for ISA in the league tomorrow.

It will be against a certain team called Bombenera. Or whatever is that.

First time I will be playing for the U-15 League..

Supposedly I should be feeling glad. but i missed training today..


Im so fricking nervouS!


It's so weird isnt it. I try so hard just to get that match, but yet when the opportunity comes for me, suddenly, miracurously, I want out.

It's like seeing a girl of your dreams. Working really hard to impress her. Then suddenly, when it comes to the point where you have to start talking, suddenly, you lose all of your senses and the blood pumps faster into your face. Reddening it. Why does this happen? If only it could be easier, that would have been really great.

Nothing will ever prepare you for that climax point. It is a certain stage where one has to attempt to move on, whether or not it is going to work or not. I have to say, I can't push myself beyond that thin line. It's just so difficult.

But I'll try.

Starting with tomorrow's match with Bombenera

Wish me luck guys.



That's all folks

Good Night


(it's so freaking cold in the exam halls, you with your trusty jacket? *chuckles*)
SiYuan at 12:27 AM