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Sunday, March 25, 2007

Just reading some posts by some guy really made me reflect hugely on my life.

Up till now, what have I achieved?

Fifteen years of shite. What have I done so far?

Just imagine, you are going to die in 5 minutes.

Think about what you've NOT done in the past. Not what you've done. Think about what you wanted to do, but didnt do because you were afraid. Because that part of you held you back.

Your 5 minutes start now.


























Alright. Does it feel good? Now forget about all those bullshit.

Do you want to have that feeling again? No you dont.

So dont. Ever. Hold yourself back again.

If you did something, dont' regret it. It's part of a learning process.

You fall down. It hurts. You cry. You stand up and walk again.

Just the same with everything else.

Surely you've heard quotes like. Never have regret, or Live life to the fullest (^^) or things like that. That you probably think is some randomly generated rubbish from some weirdass philosopher with too much time in his hands.

I'll tell you. They are true. You only get to live once. Once the opportunity goes, it's gone man.

And the best way to learn, is through pain and failure. This may sound sadistic. But that's the only way to learn.

Do you think Muhammad Ali his first fight? (okay he may have)

Do you think Beckham won every single match of his life?

Do you think Ronaldinho completed every trick he tried? No. He failed.


No one succeeds forever.

Instead of thinking about failure. And regretting and stuff like that.

Embrace it!




That's all folks


Good Night

SiYuan at 2:48 AM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Hey muppets.

Time for a chocolate post.


Well everyone lives a life like different kinds of hershey chocolates. I shall touch on one of them today, which is actually the Chocolate and Cookies one.

Hershey's Chocolate and Cookies

It is an exceptionally sweet chocolate. So sweet it's unbelievable that there's actually cocoa inside.

Yea. It's only $1.60.

How does it apply to life though?


Alright. Let's see. There must be some period of your life that tastes like Hershey's chocolates and cream. Some periods where it's so good-going and nice that you thought it'll never end.

But then, like the chocolate, it has to end somewhere. And for the chocolate, it ends amazingly fast. Because by the time you finished your first bite, the entire bar is almost finished.

Same case for the life. That sort of exhilaration that runs through you lasts for at most a week. By the time that time reaches, the feeling is gone already, or something bad has already happen.

That's what we call a lucky streak. No one can get lucky forever, or unlucky forever. One of these days a Chocolate and Cookies will fall into your life.

Also, note that the bitter taste after that, wanting for more of it will drive you for more of it. It'll create a false sense of anxiety when you dont' have it.

Alright. End of Choco post.
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What's this feeling. Hmm. It's a sort of. feeling.

Like.

That's all folks

Good Night

SiYuan at 11:09 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007




Erotic Thriller



You've made your own rules in life - and sometimes that catches up with you.

Winding a web of deceit comes naturally, and no one really knows the true you.



Your best movie matches: Swimming Pool, Unfaithful, The Crush





Hmmm.




You Have Your Emotions in Check



You are an incredibly stable and happy person.

Ever consider being a therapist?

You have figured out how to keep a positive outlook, no matter what.

You don't have an easier life than anyone else. You just have figured things out a little more.



I'm surprised.




Your Five Factor Personality Profile



Extroversion:



You have medium extroversion.

You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.

Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.

But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."



Conscientiousness:



You have medium conscientiousness.

You're generally good at balancing work and play.

When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.

But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.



Agreeableness:



You have medium agreeableness.

You're generally a friendly and trusting person.

But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.

You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.



Neuroticism:



You have medium neuroticism.

You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.

Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.

Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.



Openness to experience:



Your openness to new experiences is high.

In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.

You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.

A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.


SiYuan at 8:37 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007




Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)



Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal.



Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men

You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.



Hmm.




The Keys to Your Heart



You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.



In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.



You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.



You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.



Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.



Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.



You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.



In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.



Ahhh.




Your Brain is Purple



Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.

You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.

Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.



You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.




Purple?. I thought I was yellow.




You Are Pretty Happy



You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.

But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.

Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.

Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!




Hmmm




You Are Pretty Happy



You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.

But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.

Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.

Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!


I dont believe this. I'm a woman. SHIT


You date like you are 18 years old.





You are fairly new at the dating game and are still trying to figure out what type of guy or girl you are into. You enjoy dating around and tend to get crushes on many different types of people.


Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com


Good. C:












Your most appealing feature is:
Your Skin



Your best feature is your skin. Your skin has an incredible tone and is very soft. All of your friends are crazy jealous.
















'What is your best feature?' at QuizGalaxy.com


Dont get jealous now.

Pablo Picasso





Pablo Picasso should paint your portrait. You are a totally unique person. You are usually the first one to adopt a new mode of thought or the latest fashion. Everyone looks up to you. You are friendly and easygoing with everyone you meet.


Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com




Hohoho. Picadude.

SiYuan at 9:40 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse
Barely stuttered out
"A joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue
Weighed down with words too over-dramatic
Tonight it's "it can't get much worse"
Vs. "no one should ever feel like.."

Any idea what song is this, knobs?. Haha.

It's quite a nice song. By FOB of course. Any self-confessed fan would know this song, and probably the lyrics by heart.

I'm not a FOB fanatic, sadly.

I went to training yesterday.

Alright, dressed in the clothes from the day before.
Converted my sling bag into a sack.

Proceeded to the station. Waited for the cunts. They arrived. In funny manner. Dressed in construction worker's clothes. Lol.

Alright. The ISA training jersey really looks like construction clothes. Seriously. Like Ah Seng Coffee Shop kind.

Hahaha. Alright. I slept on the bus, listening to walkman. They tried to wake me up, but I was sleeping too soundly. Then checked messages. Then went down the bus and headed there.

The moment I went there, I grabbed Bakheri's hat. haha. He's a baldy again~! Naplah was there too, and accused me of not turning up delibrately. =.= What the hell. Lol. Anyway, they left shortly.

The training afterwards was really really shitty. No one wanted to pass to me. Fuck those assholes. I got the ball on my own. And refused to pass to them too. I ran and ran during the training match. Oh yea.

The rain was so heavy, my boxers surely weighed a ton afterwards. Then lightning strike 3-4 times, Coach cancelled session. AHHH. Fuck. I was so close to performing.

Met a new friend, Randall. Singaporean. 18. Nanyang Poly. Hmm.

Then went home. I hate formosians. Especially formosians who keep on boasting. And talk down of other people. He should die.

Anyway.

That's all folks

I guess.

Haha.

Good Night.

SiYuan at 7:22 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007

Sian.

Blogger has become my only refuge.

I'm so bored man.

I dont know whether to go training with Teh today, or Fang Yi tomorrow. Formosians. Screw them.

But anyways, I think I'll go for training either today, tomorrow, or Friday.

Seriously, the Holiday has become really boring. I don't like staying at home. I'd rather go to school now.

I dont' wish to comment on anything anymore. Lest my comments become the sharp daggers that I dread most.

Heh. I think I'll toughen up a little and go for all three days.

After all it's just 2 hours of hell for three days.

$15 a session.

$45 a week. Damn. I need money. I seriously need money.

Alright.

I might blog later.

That's all folks

Good Day.

SiYuan at 2:26 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Hello all.

I am finally alone at the house for 2 days.

Yep.

Saturday and Sunday. Totally alone. No one will be home for these two days.

Woopee. Anyone up for a party? xD


Anyway, the ICA has finally sent me a letter asking me to go make my IC. I'm gna go take my IC photo tomorrow^^ I'm finally going to be a real singaporean. Yep. One with Identification.

Oh yea. I was feeling pretty bored one fine morning. So I took some "arty" photos.

Oh yea. This is a spooky one. Isnt it? woooOooo



This. Is a classic. I feel kind of evil taking pictures of stuff like this. But well, that's me. Isnt it?. C:

I'm kind of lazy of posting every single photo I took. There's quite alot of them. Really.

Let's talk about the week.


There was this prize-presentation thing yesterday. It was kind of gay. I mean. Ong chose me, even though I told him in his face I didnt want to go.(it's a little hard to do that, but with some training, it's easy to talk into his face) Then the next day he told me that he had already submitted my name.

Dictatorship, really. So, without really much choice, I went to the thing lor.

Then we sang really loudly for the School song part. Haha. Yep. Parents started looking at us. I couldnt really sing the chinese part. Then Mr Wong confiscated Tao Yee's name tag for talking too loudly. Haha. I never asked him what he got for punishment today.

Detention, perhaps?

Haha. Then spent some time searching for my bag, because Glenn hid it behind the chairs. wth =.= Haha.

Hot chic's really getting to my nerves lately. She can't just shut up?. Hello. Just let me sleep can?

If you need me to draw some shit diagram then wake me up. I dont have to listen to your nonsense every single second of your period. If your class was more interesting, I wouldnt' be sleeping.

So it's your fault, not mine.

Oh yea. and jianliang, thanks for the SS textbook. Unlike someone who sits diagonally beside me, who refused profusely to lend me the SS textbook for even a minute( think he'll die if I even touched it).

Then that bugger still dare to ask me whether SS hard or not. I told him, not hard, fortunately someone lent me their textbook. Classic C:

Sian. It's finally the holidays now. It's just 8 more days.^ Will I receive any presents this year?. I think I might not. Haha.

It's been so long since Christmas.



That's all folks.


Good Night.

SiYuan at 4:49 AM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

I'll start off the post with a picture.





Classic. Isnt it?

Well. United beat Loserpool 1-0. The Scousers werent' good enough. United had a man sent off wrongly, and still manage to beat the losers with a O'Shea kick.

I was actually feeling pretty shitty before that, but then suddenly the goal came, all thoughts of lonerness at first disappeared.

I was very surprised when some of my friends sent me the goal message, when my stream havent even show the goal yet. So I waited and waited. No goal. Then suddenly. Goal!

Lol.

Alright. There isnt really much to write about. I'll try my best.

Yesterday, I got pangsehed at Suntec. So feeling pretty sorry for myself, I treated myself to ice-cream. Yep. Gelare. Same spot. Weird feeling. Like choking on chicken bone. I finished my ice-cream, and walked out of the place.The sense of nostalgia hitting me like snowballs.

Hits. hurts. Goes away. Then hits again.

I took the entire same trail I did 2 month ago. Bought a knee guard. $25. Wallet's crying.

Yep. I think that should be all.

I'm feeling sorry for myself again.

That's all folks

Good Night.


so much I want to say. So little chance.

SiYuan at 6:20 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

I'm at a loss of finding ways to start a new post.

Then. Looking back at what I've done for the month of February, I feel pretty silly.

I guess that's what everyone get when they look back at past actions?.

You never seem to realize what's wrong until it's over.

Then you feel the regret and the feeling of shit hits you like a wall.

By then, it'll be far too late, and whether you like it or not, the boat has sailed.

I'm just writing whatever comes to my mind right now, because it's kind of cloudy up there.
I dont know if it's my contact lenses or what. But it's kind of blurr.

I must suffer from schziophrenia. 1 hour I can be ego-fested, the other can be emo-fested.

I dont know la.

The teachers' are pretty shitty.

Form teacher is being such a bitch.

I dont know why.

Comes in, scolds us for not doing one question. All of us. Even scolds those who did.

Then he goes on ranting on how we're supposed to be the top class, and how we're supposed to be in the top 100.(PS: I'm not there)

Then he goes on on how 20 people failed the Chem Pop Quiz. Hello. Less than 10?
How you teach top class when your maths so kuku? I believe you have "formed" the wrong class. Go back to your silly chemist job. We dont' want you. Seriously.

Then there's Miss Ting. Ahh. The classic. Wearing stocking to school. With sandals. Lol. I can't stop laughing everytime I see it. At first I thought she had webbed foot. Lol. NTUC Aunty, it is.
I dont know. She always wear those flowery clothes? Haha. Auntie-style I think.

Then she will also rant on how 3e2 is supposed to be the best class. I mean. You bastards streamed me in. Don't blame me for your choice. Then she always so attitude to us. Teach some stuff like want to kill people like that. Then when shihui did the diagram wrongly her faced was so red it looked like a baboon's ass.

Hole. I promised someone not to swear. I'm trying not to. It's kind of hard. Anyway. I'll fail physics again. Hopefully there'll be a review and they'll realize that they wanted to stream ShiYuan, not Si Yuan into 3e2.

I'm feeling pretty lonely in school without really anyone in class to talk to. the e6 guys are so far back. Dont' want to walk all the way there all the time.

Ah. Transfer me out, please!


That's all folks

Good Night

Sleep la.

SiYuan at 11:28 PM