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You think you've got it Ohh, you think you've got it But got it just don't get it Till' there's nothing at AaaaaaaaAAAAAAAaaaaaaAAAAAAaaaaaallllll.. We get together Ohh, we get together But seperate's always better when there's feelings InvooooooOOOOOOOoooooooOOOOOOooooooOOOOOlved More next. That's all folks Good Night SiYuan at 3:25 PM If only I can do it once again, if only I could. That was a statement I've repeated to myself many a time in this 17 years of my life. Although I've sporadically labelled myself a midlife criser(is there such a word?), many many things I wish I could undo, redo, never do. Moments where I knew I could have done better, chances where I knew I should have taken, opportunities where I knew I regret. If I were to list down everything, it will take a server and a half full of it. Like a bag of emotions waiting to be released, these little pixies often flit into my head and whisper sweet-nothings, tempting me to take the under-road and further multiply their numbers. If my lens of the world is that curved, I will never be happy. The way I look at it changes daily, but one consistent thought arises in my head : It is only through experiences like this, that shapes me, like a mountain after years of rain and dust, and the oak tree after moon and shine. Without these, I will not be whom I am today, a unique snowflake(running against Chuck Palombo and Tyler Durden now) with the freedom to fully express. I will not let myself be a clone of commercialism and media. With scars like this, it only further enhances you, and also builds the confidence innate. Decisions are better made, and you know what's right. You know the next time something comes up, you'll do the right thing, you'll make the right efforts, you'll push with fervour and zest. That, is the strength of mistakes, and how "failure's the mother of success" comes about. Though it's true that setbacks like that will pull you down, and make your life as miserable as it gets, why worry? Instead, fire up your muscles and stand up strong, and that makes the distinction of a champion. That's all folks Good night oh btw fuck you. SiYuan at 11:49 PM It was as if taunting me. Right after, everywhere I went love came. In the form of little indian and chinese kids, ugly looking couples with non-stop PDA on the MRT, and the two cats in missionary right next to my lift. Like a slap to the face, I wasnt' in the "moment" so to speak as always. In fact, I caught myself snoozing inside. That's when you know, you know. Haha, looks like Facebook God wants me to know, go forth the RSD way. Any attempts otherwise just isnt' working for me at all. It isnt so much as a technical "not-working-for-me", much rather a "I-can't-do-this-anymore" thing. I have probably done it 3-4 times thus far alone, and none of it's working. Am I confined to social robot-ing now? Oh please do, take me back to Paradise City. That's all folks Good night. SiYuan at 11:18 PM |
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