Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Let's see what it means first,

in the first sense above often arises from psychological trauma and is a component in many anxiety and stress disorders. The person, while physically present, moves elsewhere in the mind, and in a sense is "not entirely present", making them sometimes be seen as preoccupied or distracted. In other cases, the person may seem fully present but operate merely intellectually when emotional connection would be appropriate. 

It is probably one of the oddest peeves I have actually. While it doesn't point towards Bateman-esque psycho-ness. The ability to actually, remove myself from the situation and arrive at my inner-zen, even when it's uncalled for. It's like my mind knows what's good and what's bad for me, and chooses to remove attachment towards things that may potentially and realistically according to the mind, give me pain. Or that's what is stated there.

I may have an evolutionized case of such behavior, I actually, can't feel pain, or any feelings towards it. It's as if I may really be a Martian, I just dont care? I try hard you see, very hard, to invoke and stimulate, or even imagine what I should really be feeling at the moment. But really, what I feel is what I get, and it's like a camera zooming out, the more it happens the more I zoom out, unfocused, until it's just one big pixel left. Perhaps that's why I'd really want you to stop. Before I do.


That's all folks,

Good night.

Ave' fun tomorrow young gan.
SiYuan at 10:42 PM