Sunday, December 27, 2009

I came in to this with full intent. It's not always my habit to be posting FRs on my blog, never done so actually. Not that it could count as an FR. Probably an anti-FR? A'way here goes.

I came in to this with full intent, I knew it would be hellish. After 2 years of "game", some habits are really unshakable. Fortunately, someone was there to make a bet with me before I left. And I never lose bets. I've got to try it, anyway.

Most of it's hazy, some even oddly blank. My dreams and mixed with reality, bit of what happens everyday. I know I did something against my core instinct, against the inner voice in my head. Almost everything I did was another hurling blow to my intrinsic avatar. I did my best rendition of a chode, actively pushing all signs: lousy body language, trying for rapport tonality, dousing flames that started. If anyone could get attracted to that, it'd be the 3 eye 6 finger. It wasn't that I wasn't enticed by her. I sure as hell was. Nothing bad against her, she'd probably make good breakfast with nicely crisped toast if she wasnt lazy, and chocolates to the eye as well. I would again, now that we're hopefully deep into friendzone,  I can let loose the shackles and "san-poof" here I am.

First anti-game. hehe.


That's all folks

Awesome Afternoon
SiYuan at 4:31 PM